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30 March 2013

Dear Diary,

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A month ago, I bought a diary. I’m always busy, between keeping up with blogging (emails take time people, time) and schoolwork (essays take even more time than emails people, even more time), it’s not very often I get to just sit back and reflect on my day. While in some sense this blog is a diary, looking back at a post reminds me what I did that day and that’s probably one of my favorite things about it, I’ve never kept a real diary. I have various short exerts of writing typed up all over my laptop’s hard drive, short stories (some so short they’re quite literally a sentence) that a psychiatrist might deem as a passive aggressive way of dealing with life when it’s just a teensy bit harder than I woke up anticipating that day. Sometimes, it’s just my way of facing those people who get all up in my grill, because Voltaire pretty much nailed it when he said ‘common sense is not so common’. With all this writing and emailing and learning, it never really occurred to me that reflecting back on my day might actually be somewhat therapeutic. While writing it out in a much more metaphorical sense through prose definitely helped, it was something that happened weekly as opposed to daily. My general response had you asked me if I kept a dairy would have been along the lines of ‘ain’t nobody got time for that’.

Writing things out isn’t helpful for everyone, but it's something that I’ve always found beneficial. I write out notes to revise, about 3 sets for each topic until I’m down to just key words, I write to-do lists, I write on this blog, I write not on this blog, so why it never occurred to me to write a journal is arguably a little odd. Nevertheless, I didn’t piece this together until one particular journal caught my attention in a bookstore (oh Waterstones, you magical place of wonder). I bought it purely because of the front cover, and the fact it was filled with philosophical quotes disdaining upon the human race. Perfect, I love philosophy and I love grumpy philosophers. I took it home, placed it on my bedside and spent a week or so flicking through the various quotes, still not piecing together the fact that I could possibly actually start to write in this thing.

So it sat on my desk for a couple more weeks, until one day the first day of my AS mocks when I couldn’t quite verbalize how stressed I was through a short story. I picked up the diary that had sat unloved for weeks now, and blah. It all came out. I felt oddly, instantly better. I filled the pages for the first week with daily anecdotes of the stupidity of life, and sometimes other people, heck once my own cat made the headlines. After the first week I started writing down the good stuff too, today’s definite conclusion about humanity didn’t always need to be the middle finger, sometimes it got a thumbs up. The person who held the door for me and smiled, the sweet email I got and where/when I had the perfect lunch at a restaurant.  I save the juicy secrets for prose, but sometimes the blatant facts of the day are nice to have in a less symbolic manner. The fact I can tell you what I did over a month ago is amazing, the fact I can tell you who I did it with, who made me laugh/cry/swear is outstanding. I don’t have time to write in it everyday, some pages are weeklong summaries, but there’s something to be said about writing details down that evoked an emotion. Somehow and unexpectedly, cursing the day’s bad events sheds light on the good things. I’m sure once I start learning to drive and no doubt develop severe road rage, the pages will be filled with capital profanities, but for now there’s a balance that magically helps keep me in balance. Besides, if a day is particularly challenging, it’s nice to get some validation from the likes of Sartre and Nietzsche. 

So, what's your 2 cents on dairies?

You can find the journal here for americans, but I purchased mine in Waterstones (online here).


13 comments:

  1. A diary! How quaint in this digital day and age! I love the idea of being able to look back 2 months and reading an entry of that day! Even better if you can get a feeling for what the day was like from the tone of your writing! I think a diary is a fantastic idea.

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  2. This is kind of cool because I just bought today a dairy and it's true that maybe a blog can be like a dairy but sometimes is very heartwarming an old school dairy xx!
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  3. I really like this post. You write so well!

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  4. I love having a diary!

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  5. I'm a poet so of course I love journals. I don't exactly keep them all together, between my computer and a notepad they are all there.

    In the Mean
    In the Mean
    xx

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  6. I agree wit you, writing is a great way of letting things go and a way of realizing what is important and what isn't!

    Great post!

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  7. I always tried to keep journals for as long as possible but never filled one book. But I always loved the feeling after I finished an entry, like things are going to get better if they are written down. Great post!

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  8. I kept a diary for about 2 years but then I stopped, mainly because my blog is like a journal thing now! I really want to get back into it though, something kinda nice about sitting down with a pen and a book xxx

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  9. Hey sweety! Thanks for stopping by and I appreciate it! Amazing post! Love your writings! And are we following yet? Let me know, I always follow back! (: Stop by me soon! xx

    With love ❤
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  10. I find it hard to keep up with a day-to-day diary, I just get too busy and then my writing isn't as sincere, it's so rushed I don't like it! haha so I'm thinking of doing it when I have the time to reflect, and making time to reflect often, but not squeezing it in between rush, I like the idea of it very much though :) And you're right, looking back on entries is really satisfying! x

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  11. I used to keep diaries but the prospect of other people intruding scared me so I stopped. I want to start again and this one seems ideal. I will definitely check it out when I'm in Waterstone's next x

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  12. I find it difficult to find the time to write in diaries, but I have used them on occasion. Usually it's when I'm really stressed or feeling super duper down that I find them most beneficial for me because they give me a chance to pause and reflect. Although I did go through a stage a year or so ago or writing down three things that made me smile each day. It only lasted a couple of months, but sometimes I go back and read them and they still make me smile. So that's something I'd love to do if only I could find the time and, I'll admit it, motivation.

    x

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  13. I've been writing a diary since I was 9 and it's weird how my writing has changed so much, as a 9 year old I would literally write about everything-from what I had for breakfast to what was annoying me at the time and now as I have grown older, I find that I am a little more closed, like writing a problem is admitting that it is there and I always tend to live in denial but saying that, i continue to buy a diary every year and urge myself to write several times a week. Yours is such a cute one, i had to keep waiting for the pics to flip back so i could read what it said, such fun!

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